3/13/2020 0 Comments Thoughts from a cluttered mindIn the last week, I have felt a wave of emotions surrounding the constant updates and news coverage surrounding Covid-19. I felt like we needed to be proactive and stay informed so we stocked up on some extras at the store and followed the suggested precautions. It is difficult to know what news sources to trust so like you, I was reading what I could and remaining optimistic.
Last week, my husband was sent home from work because of 2 corona cases in his building. They are now being told to avoid public transportation and that they will be working remotely for the foreseeable future. I am currently working in a salon part time and teaching a few yoga classes. It has been advised to limit face to face contact with others and practice social distancing to avoid unnecessary exposure in order to keep ourselves and others healthy. I understand this completely and feel like it is my responsibility to be conscious of these advisories. I will not be working in the salon and I am not teaching or attending any yoga classes for the time being. I can practice at home. Yesterday, I woke up to a message from my best friend who is supposed to visit me in Berlin in 11 days and she shared the news of the European travel ban. I was heart broken. I am still in awe that Italy is in a state of complete lockdown. The Italian border is as close to Berlin as Dallas is to El Paso. It is not far fetched to assume that 2-3 weeks from now Germany could be on lockdown as well. All of this sent me on a spiral of researching, crying and trying my best to process the new information and stay calm. In the likely event of a lockdown, where do I want to be? In Berlin with German officials telling me I can’t leave the country or in Texas, in closer proximity to family? The travel ban doesn’t apply to U.S. citizens who need to get back so if I did get a flight back to Texas, I would have to go through the screening process upon arrival and if I tested positive, I would be quarantined. Where would they take me? If I tested negative, I would be advised to self-quarantine for 14 days and monitor for symptoms. Obviously no one wants to be sick but I am not as concerned about that. I know that I could rest and recover but I am afraid of potentially being responsible for the spread of the virus to those who are not as healthy as me. I literally don’t know what actions to take at this point. To stay or to go? There is a lot of misinformation going around so instead of being judgemental of others and how they are handling this crisis, can we just admit that we don’t actually have clear answers and we are all in this state of confusion together? I like the idea of sending good vibes, thinking happy thoughts or saying a prayer while you’re washing your hands for 30 seconds. I can support this. Those who know me well know that I would be one of the first to quote phrases like “You can’t live your life in fear“ and “Ignorance is bliss“ At this point it, these statements feel morally irresponsible. I don’t want to participate in the chaos of what this has created in our world but I am at a loss today. This feels like a bad dream. I am going to do some Yoga with Adriene on YouTube and hopefully find some peace, calmness and clarity. Be nice to each other guys...Let’s all practice compassion. May you find peace in the chaos. With Love from Berlin, Stevi
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